From the category: journal

09 March 2024

Procrastination at its best. I'm supposed to update this week ago tapi disebabkan kemalasan yang berpanjangan maka baruk haritok baruk ada bukak blog. Actually, it's not laziness. I'm using most of my free time scrolling over reels on social media macam kenak upah. Truly a waste is it? But I'm reading quotes, poetries.. but the sad one. Well, it's not that I read it because I feel sad or I wanna make myself sad but I'm just obsessed with words, beautiful words written by those talented poets. 

Back to the story, on 15th February, I followed Z to Cococabana Miri sebab dia ada training berlari. Of course I did not run. I didn't bring my shoes and I'm not in mood to do the walk walaupun jauh disudut hati I nak bakar lemak. I wish they could poooof gone just like that without having to put so much effort into it. Ya I know itu hanyalah angan angan mat jenin. Delulu is the solulu katanya. So I end up healing sorang tengok laut, termenung nun jauh tembus sampai planet pluto with myriad thoughts in my head. I lupak. Mun tauk memang I bawak kindle so that I can read it there -- sitting under the tree with salty kinda cold breeze crash upon my face and with the ray of sunset that could magically make me look like some kind of lonely bookish goddess. 

I don't know why but asal tengok laut rasa macam sesuatu gilak. Siktauk either it calms me or it makes me anxious. But I guess it did both at the same time. Selain ya seronok juak tengok orang berlari. Mun I nok berlari belum 3 minit dah I kenak ugut jantung I. You berhenti ataupun I berhenti katanyaaa. Pande oh. Ada masa kita training. Cakap nak kurus kannn. Sik buat siklah kurus. Soooo, fight the jantung or stay bambam. :') Around 7pm Z dah habis training. It's time to go homeee. Maka saya pun berangkat hendak balik. I usually will look up at the sky untuk tengok bintang or bulan. And surprisingly malam ya tersangatlah banyak bintang and I'm so happy. Plus kawasan sia a bit dark and of course the stars look brighter and sparkling dengan rancak sekali. Semestinya beta stop dan ambik gambar. Dolok I sik pande ambik gambar langit malam. Siktauk what setting I should use so that bintang ya nampak. But look at the result....

Nampak kan all the stars yang bertaburan? Thanks to facebook group Astronomi & Sains yang berik tips for night sky photography guna handphone. Senang jak rupanya. But it depends on the phone juak lah. I wish I could go stargazing for real and tengok milkyway. Ya pun boleh capture guna phone and I wanna try it. Tapi mesti ke tempat yang super gelap baruk dapat. 

These are my little joys of the day. I get to see things that make my brain release the serotonin/dopamine in me. Little things matter and thank you yang bawak saya raon. Kalau tak tidak dapat la says tengok tu bintang yang cantiks macam saya. Hahaha. Kalaulah dapat dipetik bak balit pake gantong dibilit kan bagus. But nah, impossible bruh. Tepek ajak lah bintang yang glow in the dark ya pun jadi. Till here then!

18 February 2024

I should have updated this last week, but I had to keep it draft until today due to personal laziness issues. Baruk haritok ada mood mok bukak blog. Masih ada kemalasan abadi tapi ku gagahi juak. Actually, I am confused about putting this post under Sundaze series ataupun Little Joys series. Hurm yang mana eh. Because it belongs and deserves to be in both categories. Kelak lah fikir. Kita polah karangan dolok.

I truly had an amazing Sunday for the past weeks and for the first time this year. Rasanya I will create two post lah sebab kalau I combine both Sundays, muntah hijau mek mok baca balit tok kelak. So this will be memories created on 4th February 2024. Guess what did I do? I went for a morning hike after years. Tahun bukan bulan bukan minggu bukan hari. Yes, years. It's been a while. To be honest I was that nervous to do it sebab rasa macam eh mampu ka aku buat tok. Biasalah dah tua kan, lutut pun boleh menggeletaq naa. Sik pasal-pasal kenak tunggah abam bomba kelak. Tapi simok abam bomba boroi. Maok yang sado ajak. Eheh! Tibeh!

Okay back to the story, I pergi hiking with my recently-made friend. Lets call him Z. Before that very Sunday, I made him promise me something. Disebabkan this person dah biasa doing this activity dan I pulak jenis yang jarang workout, of course lah aktiviti hiking nya akan jadi super lambat. Dengan nafasnya habis entah ke sine, dengan takut nya lagik hehe maap ya pak. Tapi serious lah apa bah polah jambatan tecik gilak (i know they had to). Kaki i sampai jem, bergegar kedak apa jak and it refused to move haha. My anxiety tak chill. Going the way down was quite scary for me sebab i takut jatuh tergolek patah kaki patah hidung while going all the way up was easy tapi semput nak mampus. But for sure I really had fun. I love being in nature cuma sik berkesempatan gilak mok polah macam tok. That's why I was very excited.

Sebelah petang pulak we had another activity. I ikut Z to Beraya' to see him flying with his friend. Sorang main paragliding sorang main hanglider. Penat aku menengok yang main glider ya. Sik kepak ke. Walaupun I cuma menengok sahaja and sik dapat feel the excitement of flying, but I'm still excited sebab dapat raon. Bukan selalu bah. That feeling exactly rasa macam kenak bawak raon oleh bapak masa kecik dolok. Cuma sik puaskan sebab yalah dah besar tok lain macam kegembiraan nya hihi.

Seduak healing di langit, I tengok seduak healing sambil jadi photographer. Ya begitulah itu. Kalau i yang fly kelak i sik fly sia ajak. Mun boleh i mok fly sampe ke benua lain. Lari and gone terus rupanya lol. This is the only place yang sesuai untuk polah the air-sport activity. It's a private place and the boys were using their own barang untuk terbang. Luckily cuaca, angin semua okay or else we all pulang dengan kehampaan. Syukur allah bagi kesempatan.

Last but not least, penutupan the amazing sunday, we had dinner dekat hurm dekat i tak ingatlah apa nama kedai ya. Dah cukup memasinkan muka ditepi laut kan mesti la lapar. 

I makan bolognese spaghetti and Z makan teriyaki chicken with rice. Overall the foods both sedap dan mengenyangkan dan menggembirakan. The kedai is so cantik dan selesa. I will update the name here once I remember it but it's somewhere located around Marina area. 

To some people mungkin I just had a casual day, nothing interesting, biashe biashe aje but to me, it did make me happy. Its the little girl in me yang gembira dibawak berjalan sebenarnya. I sanggup ambik cuti to have this day. Duit boleh dicarik, but you wont get the same opportunity twice. I simply seize the day tanpa berfikir duak tiga kali pun. Kepada yang membawa amek raon, thank you so much. Jasamu dikenang, to the moon and back. Till here then! x

26 September 2023

blog setup blogging

The weather today is extremely cozy to the point of making me wanting to lay down on my bed and wrap myself in the velvety super comfy blanket. I keep yawning endlessly! The cold breeze, the sound of the raindrops and the humming melody of the car on the wet street, damn so perfect. Living in Malaysia, the weather are mainly hot and humid all the time, so when it rains, its like winning a lottery. Everyone will be happy and gratitude feelings are thrown away like a confetti.

I am much happier with my blog setup now. The color shade, the theme itself, it's warm and feels like even more a safe place to spill my thoughts. I have made few changes especially in the categories section which is fully inspired from other blogger and I love it! Here what you can browse around if you ever stumbled upon my tiny little site.

Little Joys — Mainly focus on my gratitude list and will be update every Friday.

Serene Sunday — Let's chill and spill everything from the brain inbox before you forget kind of day.

Travel — I love travel and I gotta write where I left my footsteps for the sake of memories.

Books — Sharing session about books I have read.

Journal — Daily diarium of what I did, what I feel etc.

Musing O'Clock — The aftermath of self-reflection.

Foodgasm — Foods and foods!

Self-Care Center — Grouping everything here; haircare, skincare and any personal care stuff.

100 Tips — Sharing the tips and hacks that is tested and personally approved.

Playlist — Sometimes I forgot what is once my favourite music, thus why this section exist.

I will try my best to commit on the writing as blogging used to be one of my hobby. It has been almost 15 years since I start blogging for the first time. I never stick to one name and keep changing them severely. I named this blog 0029am; a letter to life because I often drowning in thoughts at midnight and have a trouble to sleep, and yeah, it's where the idea come from. This blog probably will be here even after 10 years and by that time I will go down memory lane to read how was my life before. The reminisce moments would definitely be priceless. Till here then!  

25 September 2023

It's Monday, the most hated day among the others. Monday isn't fair and absolute cheater. It's way too far from Friday yet Friday is very close to Monday. How is it possible? Well, it was a good day after all except that there was no sunset. The cloud is hiding it from me. I spent the evening going for a run from 6pm to 7pm and I am trying to make it a routine which I already started the previous week. 

I decided to pick up this new habit when a massive sense of guilt for eating more than I should have been haunting me. I started doing the calorie-deficit diet last December and stopped the routine in May and it has been on hiatus for almost 4 months. Damn, I have lost almost 10kg during that time and gain another 5kg now. It's very frustrating how my effort has gone to waste due to my own silly mistake. How could I say no to food when everything seems to comfort me more than anything? :')

Glad the realization kicked in fast before it's too late. I never want to go back to my previous weight so whatever it is, I really need to push myself again this time. Cutting off the endless snacks, the sugary drinks, and portioning my meals correctly. I did this before and I will do it again.

The thing that makes me happy and proud of myself today is I managed to do the circle run twice without stopping. Been pushing myself all the way till I reach the finish line. For someone quite heavy like me, running is damn exhausting and such a pain in the ass hence that little achievement is enough to make me feel content and over the moon. Yeay!

Of yellow flowers, purple flowers, pink flowers, and the waxing gibbous moon. Monday is a happy day. Till here then!

24 September 2023

que sera, sera

It's almost the end of the year and I am feeling frustrated with myself more than ever. This blog is still empty. The domain was supposed to be out in June since I am planning to completely resign from this blogging world but apparently, the domain has been renewed automatically for two freaking years by the domain hosting company that I subscribed to. I don't want to continue it actually but I guess this blog still wants me to be part of it so yeah, I will try to start writing again and turn this blog alive and not dead.

Life has been pretty good despite a few times I feel like drowning. The act of appreciating and embracing the little things around me has changed me a lot. It calms the endless chaos in my entire body and keeps my sanity intact. I love staring at the blue skies more than ever now. At the same time, I will play a little search-a-rainbow game and it levels up my dopamine whenever I spot one. It makes me realize that we actually don't need much to make our happy hormones go crazy, instead, we need to be grateful and cherish whatever is in front of us. It is the greatest source of happiness and a peaceful mind. Seek no more.

I'm turning 30 real soon which is unbelievable how fast time flies. I am wondering what the future holds for me; will it be good or will it be another bad series? I know I'm not supposed to worry about it for everything has been written for us but life kinda scares me. It's full of surprises. You don't know if you will laugh your head off or cry your heart out. But yeah, que sera, sera. Whatever will be, will be.

I will try my best to make another update soon. I have *ahem* a good feeling about it this time. Till here then, bye! 

26 April 2023

kampung lajong niah

I gotta say this time I had fun celebrating hari raya. Usually, to be honest, I don't feel anything about it all. I'm just celebrating it simply because everyone is doing so. I have my personal reason which I can't mention here but hey, selamat hari raya, everyone!

I had the chance to spend one whole day going out with Nisa and her entire family on the third hari raya. She's been my best friend since primary school and we are simply a non-biological sister for more than 10 years dah. So following the time yang ditetapkan oleh abah nisa, me and my sister went to their home around 10am, we gathered there and start our journey to Kampung Lajong Niah. Rasanya around sejam lebih juak lah perjalanan. I'm not sure sebab macam biasa as a backseat passenger, kerjanya hanyalah tidur sahaja. Plus i still have my migraine so yeah i'd rather sit quietly.

But we did stop at perumahan area sungai rait first before heading straight to Niah. The weather was dark and gloomy and it rained heavily but we managed to survive going out of the car and running into the home of Nisa pun cousin. Baruk sigek rumah dah lebur gais. Stokin basah (not mine ofc), baju basah, makeup pun menyenyeh (betul sik mek eja tok?). Makan minum makan minum chit chat dan tibalah masa untuk berangkat ke destinasi seterusnya. Guess what? I dapat angpau 2 keping uolls. Alhamdulillah still entitled to get it walaupun hakikatnya dah maok masok 3 series kekeke.

kuala sibuti sarawak

Sampai ke Kampung Lajong Niah, sambung lagik makan minum makan dan minum. We visited two houses dan kemudiannya bergerak ke Kampung Kuala Sibuti. The journey also took around one hour maybe. The place really got a genuine kampung vibe and I gotta say i love it especially bila tengok all the lampu raya yang meriah gilak. It was my first time experiencing beraya di kampung ya so I am amazed by their creativity doing the decorations. Untuk penggemar seafood especially udang galah, this place is for you. It's one of the place yang famous dengan menu udang galah. 

kampung kuala sibuti

The photo above is a piece of evidence that I didn't lie when I say their lampu raya is freaking meriah and mesmerizing. For more evidence boleh tengok sitok HERE. I suka tengok lampu and yes I super love it when it sparkles everywhere. So dekat sitok we went to few houses and seriously my tummy has reached the limit. Mabuk dah rasa minum soda dari kaler oren ke kaler gadong ke kaler kalas haih macam macam kaler lah. But I didn't get bored makan the biskut raya. One thing about hari raya is i love most of the snacks yang dihidang atas meja. Makmur tanpa kacang and popia are my favourites! Yes I am pure Sarawakian tapi says bukan penggemar kek lapis so yeah I don't eat much of it kecuali the one made of horlick. Yums!

Honestly, I had fun with them. Surprisingly few of their cousins know my dad. Jadi siklah rasa terasing gilak beraya dengan family orang lain kan kekeke. I know my gambar is buruk but what can I do, I lupak mok ambik proper photos for blog post. Til here then, selamat hari raya!

18 April 2023

life update
Photo by Sixteen Miles Out on Unsplash

Lamak gila dah sik bukak blog tok. Kamek rasa mun blog tok sebuah rumah, confirm dah jadi salah satu property yang berhantu. Life has been good lately (ada juak yang not good but i choose to be blind and deaf about it hehe). Banyak yang mok diceritakan thus why im back here. Harap idea penulisan ya sentiasa ada jak lah. Lelah juak mun mala kenak writer's block. Padahal bukan cerita rekaan tapi susahnya mok polah ayat rasa macam jawab kertas spm jak heheh.

I'm going to update about my travel journey to Jogjakarta and Surabaya, my personal growth progress, books I've finished reading, my thoughts about uncertainty and other things which i ada update the quick version on instagram, about what's going on with my life (i ada kenak scam abam pulis uolls) and everything that I could remember. Banyak juak yang mok di share dalam blog yet i don't know why i couldn't make it until here. 

I am writing this while listening to lofi playlist and its already midnight. A new day has started. Raya is just around the corner. And its already mid-april. Phew lajunya masa. I gotta fill my days with more good things, more positive things, and just everything good. Though I know its impossible to be happy and feel good all the time, but its not a crime to try my best kan. Sikkan lah mok sedih ajak. Boringnya hidup. Sik dapat polah real outdoor activities, sik apa. Kita camping online, berbasikal online, mandik sungai online and so on hahah. This year I really wanna spend more time with nature and do more outdoor activities. Tapi sik ada geng. I need a new circle but how? Ada ka yang maok kawan dengan amateur macam saya tok? What a sad question!

It's okay. I will try to figure it out myself later. Jangan jak mood introvert datang balit. Bukan main jak semangat kelak dah diajak benar alu rasa menyesal. Biasaaaa diaaa. Tapi hakikatnya seketul introvert memang macam ya. But I'm trying to change myself at least lah to ambivert. Middle range homosapiens. Till here then. x

03 December 2022

I no longer want to correct people. Even though they might be right or wrong, I will not say anything and just gonna keep my mouth shut. I am hated for correcting people when I know they are doing something incorrectly. I have been told as someone who thinks I am perfect enough that I can fix their mistakes. That was absolutely not the truth and I never said that I am perfect. But just because I spit out the truth, I become the toxic person.

It makes me think again whether my action is toxic or if they are the ones who are toxic and refused to admit their mistakes. It reminds me of being gaslighted and that my words are being twisted and manipulated. Knowing that I might experience the same thing again and gonna trigger my trauma, I decided to leave the thoughts alone. I definitely not and don't want to be in the trap again.

I'm glad the Wednesday film is out and grateful that I spend my time watching it. I've learned something from the main character. Don't give a fuck about people and just do your things. Let them do whatever they want as long as they don't break into your privacy. Well, I think that is clever enough how to deal with humans. I also realized that talking to people like that actually won't affect them and I am just wasting my time trying to fix or correct others.

Rather than having a stupid argument and putting me in agony while the other side is being effortless, I might just do the same and ignore the ignorance. That's it. I hope I can be more resilient and adapt to my new character traits. I don't want to deal with humans anymore. I will just do me and let them do theirs. Enough.

22 January 2022

2022 new year

Can't believe it's already 2022. Another year, another older. Terasa macam cepat jak masa berlalu. Pejam celik dah tahun baru. I have no new year resolution this year cause I never accomplished much of my new year goal's list. I am just hoping for things to get better for me; for me to be able to heal, to fix myself, to be triple stronger than before, and to have healthy mental health and a piece of tranquility for my soul. I don't know if it's too much to ask for but that's the only thing I wish for right now. I am in need of a fresh start desperately. But I am kinda in an unstable state.

2021 has been such a pretty rough episode for me. I've been crushed by life real hard. I've been crying a lot again, I had panic attacks a few times, anxiety attacks most of the time, lost in space quite some time -- it's damn exhausting. Even if I try to distract myself from it, I just can't control that crazy adrenaline rush. People might say I'm too weak, too soft against myself, but only god knows how terrible I felt whenever I face that moment, only god knows how much I hate myself for not being able to pull myself out from that kind of situation. I start self-harming myself again. I even start to release my anger and disappointment by punching the wall till my hand turned red. Pretty fucked up, isn't it?

I am now living with endless suicidal thoughts and constant fear. I no longer do my favorite things. I have nothing to look forward to. I'm simply staying alive for the sake of living. Thus it makes me question myself, why do I still want to continue this life when I no longer have things I want to do?

Nampak sik kecelaruan otak yang sangat dasyat sekali? But, despite all that, I earn a lesson for life at the same time. I only need to be more positive and stronger so I can take the lesson to the heart and build myself back again. I need to fight the demon in me. Wish me luck. 

15 August 2021

Image by Angela Lo

I finally learned how to respect my feelings and boundaries. It has been a tough journey but now, knowing that caring about something worthless is really a waste of time and energy, I choose to completely ignore it. Some people often say that I am too sensitive and fragile and weak, so I unequip and get rid of my emphatic traits for them. I bet they have no idea how much it would affect my personality. Telling a person to be less sensitive means telling them to be heartless. The truth of excessive emotions means we all just feel a little too much and everything goes straight to our hearts. And logically, it's not our choice but it's naturally running in the vein.

Now that I am ruined and become total heartless, the feeling is quite a blessing, To turn myself into a winter cold person ain't that easy and it takes time. It's the same as when you try to move on from your ex-partner but keep on remembering your sweet moments together, or that you said you want to have a healthy lifestyle and wanting to lose some weight but still cannot throw away your bad eating habits! When you were being treated badly and someone disrespects your boundaries, stop giving them chances. You don't give them chances to appreciate you but you simply give them chances to rip your soul off. There's a fine line between patience and stupidity. Don't be stupid.

Some might argue that it's not a good thing to do. Like when they say, kalau orang berik bunga, kita berik bunga. Kalau orang berik kita taik, kita berik bunga juak. But it's just ridiculous. I'd rather give them nothing in return which is buat bodoh and distance myself. I'm being kind enough not to start a silly fight. Being heartless doesn't mean I'm turning myself into a bad person. But it means I am having enough and I no longer have the energy to deal with the toxicity or things that hurt me. x

20 July 2021

kristine wook

Image by Kristine Wook

Salam aidil adha. Due to this still-crazy pandemic, today hari raya can only be celebrated within family members. No cousins, no friends. But still feeling grateful for the small gathering and the meals! Now let's talk about my covid vaccine story cause this post is purposely created for that experience.

I am the last person in the family to get the vaccine shot and I am honestly anxious that my name is not being selected yet lol. When the AZ vaccine application was open for all Malaysian, we all tried our best to register our names. And my little sister, the first to get the vaccine is helping us out. But none of us were lucky as the application has been fully booked.

Even though we could not squeeze in our names, my siblings and my parents finally got their registration approved after a few days. So they all got their first AZ vaccine while I was still putting on the hope that I would get it. I kept on refreshing my MySejahtera and updating my profile yet nothing, no vaccine offer, no notification.

After a week or maybe two weeks, my friend told me to just walk into one of the vaccination facilities where her friend is working. She tried giving her my name for registration but unfortunately, it was fully booked too. Haih malang sungguh. Pun masih tak dapat. Then I got another text message from my friend asking for my personal details untuk diberikan kepada staff yang kerja dekat vaccination facility tu. And my stepmother also asking for my details to forward it to her friend yang ada kenalan di pusat vaksin tu jugak. I think the next day or perhaps after two days both of them asking me if I got a call for a vaccine shot or not. I jawab tak ada punnnn! 

But my stepmother's friend told me to just go to the vaccination facility that she mentioned cause my name has been registered. I was quite unsure since I got no phone call from them. Nanti tak pasal-pasal kena maki dan kena halau pulak. That time I was working and baju penuh tepung sebab seharian buat kuih and I got no time for a change so terus ke pusat vaksin. Bau peluh pun bau lah ~

By the time I reached there, tak ada banyak orang pun. I just walked in and follow instructions given by anggota rela yang berkerja disana. It's finally my turn! Akhirnya penantian yang ditunggu-tunggu. I've been given a pfizer vaccine and macam biasa since my family all got their AZ, silly thoughts came playing in my head. No offend but I'm kinda scared with the side effect lol. And the funny thing is I even imagined what if we will be separate based on what vaccine we got just like those in Divergent series. Scary!

Disebabkan i sorang dapat pfizer, they are all dengki with me lol. I honestly don't care what vaccine i got and i don't understand why comparing vaccine has become a big deal. Yang penting dapat vaksin kan. I will get my second dose next week and hope that everything will be fine. Dengar cerita second dose will be quite heavy. As for the first shot, I tak demam or tak ada rasa apa-apa. Just that tangan lenguh dan penat lepas kena cucuk.

So this is how I got my covid vaccine yeay. Moga kita semua dilindungi dan dijauhi dari penyakit bahaya macam covid ni. Stay safe and take care semua! x

28 June 2021

monday rave
Image by Augustine Wong

It supposed to be the last MCO for Malaysia today but sadly due to the number of cases that keeps on increasing, the government has decided to go for another two weeks mereput at home. I was waiting patiently for this day but never have I felt so disappointed with the announcement. Like what the heck, I've been staying at home, 24 hours entertaining my front-room neighbour yang sentiasa lapar and never recovered from their fungal infection, for a month, yet nothing changes? Not only me but everyone who works on a sector yang tak dibernarkan beroperasi during this MCO. Yang masih dapat kerja untunglah. Yang tak dapat kerja? Life has been quite stressful this day! I hope the government seek another solution rather than polah pkp yang sik pande habis tok. Mok pkp sampe kiamat kah apa.

We are all struggling now. Everyone is trying hard to make a living, to put foods on the table for the family, to feed and heal their pets, to pay debts whatsoever. Even yang cukup makan pun rasa macam tak cukup makan, kebingungan, apatah lagi mereka yang tak punya apa-apa. Aduhai. I pray that everyone affected by all this, including me, gonna stay strong to survive this absolute, utterly, inhuman pandemic.

To this date, I still didn't get my vaccination appointment yet. Ini baru namanya penantian satu penyiksaan. But at least both my parents have been vaccinated. To be honest, I am actually scared to get the vaccine at first but my sister was going crazy saying that the probability of me dying because of covid is rather higher than me getting the shots. Silly her. Well, I know, it's true. Oh, I am not an anti-vax, I am just that chicky-scared. Please pray for me that they will select my name soon!

How was your day? Have you got your vaccine yet?

25 June 2021

I kinda had a productive day today. I woke up around 10 am (I know it's late but who cares lol) and rush into the room opposite of mine to check on my kittens. It's actually a guest room cum store, but since no one gonna come over yet, I let the cats rent the room for the time being lol. The cage that I bought for them, although quite big, is still not enough for them. They like to play around, jumping and running like crazy. I love how their tails puffed up when they get so happy. I thought they are scared or mad at first but they are actually living their life to the fullest!

I didn't do much, just top up their foods and petting them like usual before I get ready for groceries shopping. I plan to make some okonomiyaki and get the ingredients, but a shawarma appeared on my TikTok feed as well and it looks scrumptious af so yeah, I have to grab the ingredients as well. The main purpose I decide for groceries shopping sebab nak beli sotong merah pedas. But sadly dah habis lah pulak. Puncakcak.

Done with groceries shopping, I went to a pet shop to top up the cat treats and chunk wet food for my tenants. But there's not much for a kitten so I just bought the wet food for an adult cat. I wonder if it's okay to give them that? It's my first time having a pet so I still need to learn more about do and don't for cats.

Once I arrived home, I keep all the items in their place and rush to my tenant's room. I bought a new flavour cat treat for them which is SmartHeart Creamy Cat Tuna and they fucking love it! One packet (4 sachets/sticks) cost RM8. I decided to check the price on shopee and quite surprise cause it's freaking cheaper than the one I bought. They sell it on shopee for around RM4+, damn. I'm going to borong dozens of them for my tenants!

Done with bonding session through creamy bribery, I started getting on the work. I cleaned up their litter box, sapu dan mop sekaligus. Bersih wangi dah! Sekali yang sekor ni pi carik taik dia pulak dah dalam box. Habis terkeluar semua pasir maka terpaksalah sapu lagi sekali. Nasib baik comel kalau tak aku gigit dah. Since there are so many boxes in that room, I tried to minimize it. I combined the junks from three boxes into one box. Arrange them back so the kittens can't jump on the boxes. I made them a mini playhouse so they better not disturb any other than that.

Look at them! I don't know when did Champol get so macho. Not so lady-like! Miyu is way lovely and the quiet one. They are my first pet ever and I love them so much. They are my best friend, my penghibur hati <3

15 June 2021

I just purchased a new wallet for myself yeay. It's a mini croco-effect wallet in black colour by Charles & Keith. I've been looking for a small size wallet since I love to keep it minimal and this brand happens to have a xxs size which suits my preference. I gotta say the quality of this brand is quite nice and durable. My previous Charles & Keith purse, also I think in a xxs or maybe xs size, finally cracks up after maybe three years of using it. It's not really that bad though. I would say the condition is still 9/10 even though they are using faux leather.
mini purse charles and keith

The shipping and delivery period from Singapore - Malaysia - Miri took less than one week. I was worried it won't arrive at the address mentioned cause they shipped it via Aramex and they didn't even mention the second courier who takes over the parcel. I only receive a text message saying the parcel is out for delivery, but I have no idea where it is lol. Turn out I receive the parcel from GDex.

So this purse has six card slots, one cash compartment, one zip compartment for coins and snap button closure. I don't take much cash with me since I'd rather go cashless. As for the cards, I just put my identity card, driving license, debit card and membership card for groceries shopping. I'm not rich so yeah, one bank card is enough. But I'm planning to create a Maybank account just for a backup. 

Would that coin compartment be enough? No and no, I won't use them at all. I have a coin bag for coins and my other important-but-not-so-important cards. Also in a mini size as well. I used to love the long purse, but I'd rather sacrifice them with all kind of harta karun I bring in my handbag. Plus I don't have much to keep in it instead of filling them in with receipts like a garbage bin lol. 

Do you prefer a long purse, short purse or mini purse?

11 June 2021

daydreams picturesque city
What kind of daydream excites you? Let me tell you mine. Whenever I have the chance for these wishful thoughts, I always imagined myself being in a random city. Taking a stroll through the picturesque street, visiting a vintage-theme bookstore, riding a bus around the town, buying myself a bouquet of fresh baby's breath and sunflowers, getting myself a cup of non-alcoholic mojito or just a cold latte, and perhaps ice cream from the famous gelato truck around the corner. 

Guess what I will wear for the occasion? Perhaps a casual long coat like the one you have always seen in movies or K-Drama or maybe a summer maxidress. The ankle boot is a must cause it's my favourite footwear all the time. What we imagine for ourselves is kinda amusing and sometimes pretty much opposite to who we are in real life. And that is so fascinating. 

But what's bothering me in these daydreams is, it gives me a little instinct like there's something missing out from me and that I have to search for it. Is it the life I crave, or is it my inner self trying to signal me about don't-forget-to-find-yourself along the journey?

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